After last year's birthday during which I worked the entire day, I vowed I wouldn't do that again. Not that working on your birthday is bad, but working all day is! It's just not a proper celebration of one's special day. And if you have a choice, like I do, I prefer to spend it in some sort of celebration. I'll admit, at 46, (AHHH! that's the first time I have written that!) I still like to hear Happy Birthday being sung to me over a cake with at least one candle. I also like to open cards and presents. I like to be pampered and feel taken care of.
I don't think that ever gets old (like I am). Don't get me wrong, if you forget my birthday or don't send a card, I won't sulk over it. After all, it's my day and like the rest of my life, I am responsible for it.
Assuming I was going to be alone this year, I took the bull by the horns and made plans to go to Devil's Thumb Spa and Ranch, about an hour and a half from where I live. Then we realized the dates were all mixed up and Doug's gig was off. Darn. I do miss him while I am here enjoying my little respite from the everyday, but I am glad I came.
I want to mark every birthday from here on out with something really different and special. It doesn't have to be fancy - God knows I am not a fancy girl. But I want to remember it, and the feeling that comes with being special for a day. Who knows how many birthdays I have left? Could be 50 more, could be 1. This might be the last one! If that's the case, and it's my time to go sometime in my 36th...whoops I mean 46th....year, then I am glad to have done my last one up in the celebratory style to which I wish I could have become accustomed.
Cheers and a happy birthday to everyone born on October 28!
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Wednesday, October 12, 2011
Fate or Manifestation?
The other day my good friend and I were discussions all the information and teachings about manifesting your life. Our current lives, supposedly, is what we have wanted and made of it. And whatever we want, whether it's a car or a job or a bucket of money, can be manifested, perhaps in its/God's/The Universe's own good time, but it will happen.
There is also the "wisdom" that everything happens for a reason, you are where you are meant to be, etc.
That's a real dichotomy I don't understand...yet...and maybe never will.
I know that manifesting does work, because Doug and I did a vision board months before any thoughts of Denver or publishing a magazine were a twinkle in our brains, and here we are living what we put on the vision board. Did we want all of it? Yes. Did we believe it could happen? Yes. It included happily driving to mountains with sun and following a future of prosperity, happiness, freedom, fulfillment and deepening love between us. While we didn't put on the vision board that we wanted increasingly difficult challenges, I can accept them and that those "opportunities" have made us better people and a better partnership.
So that's funny isn't it? It's where we are in every respect that has been a part of the manifestation but the journey has also been loaded with other complexities...does that mean all that has been fated so we can continue in our manifestation...but we had to learn some wisdom thru these circumstances to get there? I mean, I guess where would we be without differences of opinion, the irregular tide of finances, breakdowns and exhaustion? HA! I think I would be in a better place but I guess you never get to appreciate what you have unless you have had the opposite.
What I do believe is that the universe is always working in our favor, even though plenty of times it never looks that way. I can also say that I don't think we are going to know what's fate or manifestation unless we continue to manifest, and swim with the tide of our lives when it appears not to be what we wanted.
Just two short years ago, I never expected to be living in Colorado, publishing a magazine and living with a man I adore. I bet next year I can say the same about plenty more things, and in 5 years, I probably won't even believe all the changes that will happen. I just know that I'm going to continue wishing on stars, buying lottery tickets and rolling with the punches, taking one day at a time. Whether you call it fate or manifestation, I'm not sure if matters, but I sure would like to win the lottery.
There is also the "wisdom" that everything happens for a reason, you are where you are meant to be, etc.
That's a real dichotomy I don't understand...yet...and maybe never will.
I know that manifesting does work, because Doug and I did a vision board months before any thoughts of Denver or publishing a magazine were a twinkle in our brains, and here we are living what we put on the vision board. Did we want all of it? Yes. Did we believe it could happen? Yes. It included happily driving to mountains with sun and following a future of prosperity, happiness, freedom, fulfillment and deepening love between us. While we didn't put on the vision board that we wanted increasingly difficult challenges, I can accept them and that those "opportunities" have made us better people and a better partnership.
So that's funny isn't it? It's where we are in every respect that has been a part of the manifestation but the journey has also been loaded with other complexities...does that mean all that has been fated so we can continue in our manifestation...but we had to learn some wisdom thru these circumstances to get there? I mean, I guess where would we be without differences of opinion, the irregular tide of finances, breakdowns and exhaustion? HA! I think I would be in a better place but I guess you never get to appreciate what you have unless you have had the opposite.
What I do believe is that the universe is always working in our favor, even though plenty of times it never looks that way. I can also say that I don't think we are going to know what's fate or manifestation unless we continue to manifest, and swim with the tide of our lives when it appears not to be what we wanted.
Just two short years ago, I never expected to be living in Colorado, publishing a magazine and living with a man I adore. I bet next year I can say the same about plenty more things, and in 5 years, I probably won't even believe all the changes that will happen. I just know that I'm going to continue wishing on stars, buying lottery tickets and rolling with the punches, taking one day at a time. Whether you call it fate or manifestation, I'm not sure if matters, but I sure would like to win the lottery.
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