I was surprised to find that my last post was almost 2 years ago today. Clearly, I haven't looked at my posts in a long time, and I find it serendipitous that I looked at it today. Why? I jotted a note to myself the other day to remind me to write in my book proposal to Hay House that I actually have a blog. My book proposal that's due to Hay House on yes, my birthday Oct 28.
I had the genuine good fortune to attend a seminar in April with Wayne Dyer and Hay House, which is allowing any participant at the writers' workshops around the country to submit a book proposal without an agent. There are 3 prizes - the top one a $10K advance and a book contract. I have my eye on that prize, but I won't be at all disappointed to have prizes 2 or 3 (self-publishing contracts with their sister company Balboa). And I certainly won't be disappointed to not win at all, since it's my first "trial by fire" of writing a book proposal at all.
It was an amazing number of "coincidences" - first that the book proposal is due on my birthday; that my badge number had "282828" in it and lastly that I met Wayne Dyer himself in the airport the next day, with both of us on our way to the coasts of Florida - Wayne to the East and me to the West. I mean, how could it be that the Universe wasn't telling me SOMETHING? Maybe it was just "shit or get off the pot already" which is why I am back blogging to begin with.
So yes, this enormous milestone of October 28 is not necessarily because of my 48th birthday which is lovely as birthdays go, but really because I am celebrating the fact that I shat and got off the pot, as it were.
The book is in the works, the proposal is almost done, the timing could not be more perfect. I am finally ready to shed the weight of fear and of dreams unfulfilled, to accept the criticism and barbs of those I care about and those I don't. I feel complete and whole enough to surf the wave of challenge and potential, of personal growth and courage and find out if my life's purpose is going to be endorsed by Hay House on November 28 with an announcement of the winners, or if I will have to wait. It's all good.
